huxley

"Every great advance in natural knowledge has involved the absolute rejection of authority."
- Thomas H. Huxley

I must admit, half the reason I know what I know is in order to show some one their folly.

blog

its been a while.

good music - The Album Leaf

few things
in this life make me contemplate many things.

observe

as of late I have operated and observed from a different mode than normal. I have a few thoughts on the back burner that have caused this to be so (vague on purpose, i will blog about it sooner or later).
I am starting to observe patterns in things. Patterns in life related to an individuals POV (point of view) and the consequences, positive or negative, that come from that POV. From their theology/world view/POV/or any other term you want to call it, spills forth ideas. Ideas that hit the ground running (called actions) or ideas that never see tomorrow.

Why do some hit the ground running and why don't others? What in the framework of reality grabs them and launches them to be billion dollar/save the whale type of ideas and others to be unrealistic and cause complete frustration and create coulda' shoulda' woulda' comments that plague many an old mans' porch.

philosophy
we are all philosophers, whether we like it or not.
who dries their feet before their back after a shower?
the same person who reads the news to understand reality or what tomorrow will look like.
if you understand A and B you will be able to understand C and perhaps even D. However, if you use C as your reference point to understand A,B, & D, you will be, in philosophical terms, SOL.

This is my first time being 25

I have learned that I have not learned perseverance.
There are things I love in this life, things that are noble and good and right - that I have had to suffer little for.
I have attained much (not "oh look at me kind of stuff," but gifts and graces which abound) while contributing minimal effort - and when it does not come easy I get mad. I get upset and say trite things.
Things that I replay in my head over and over and can't imagine the thought of ever repeating.

Passion coincides with perseverance.
Passion is paper thin if the two do not mingle, do not yoke.
I am 25 and I must say I don't know the definition of either well.

If the church was my bride I would have left her long ago.
I am glad You have not. I am glad you are still in pursuit and that you have never lacked or left or grown weary.

home
I go home this week.
I go home lacking integrity.
I have allowed the young professional whirlwind to consume me and it has directly resulted in the lack of communication with people who have been forever close. My parents and their parents, my sister and bro-in law, nephews - all for the sake of.........

I am not sure yet.
The lure of the next sales presentation, a successful ministry, the countless self-made commercials I have running through my mind telling me that my pursuits are noble and not fleeting. ( i believe many are not btw)

I know we all "grow up" and I know there is a cleaving process - but what is it?
Whatever it is I know this is not it - I know my heart is shallow right now.
I know it lacks love for the person drinking a latte next to me and for the orphan in Africa.
My lack of love for my own family is a magnifying glass unto my love at large.

forever

iwillforeverbeclean

don't have to

I don't have to lie to myself, though i try.
I don't have to impress myself, yet I try.

I project, instead of reflect, my perceived self to myself.
Which side of the mirror tells the truth?

no lie
As of late I would rather work than relax. I would rather work than read my bible or read a good book, even CS Lewis. Something other than calm is my choice no matter how stormy the weather.

Psalm 23 seems farther than 458 pages away.

next
talk to Him. ask Him. I can't do it.

this night

so its 3:15 or so in the a.m.
i just got home, i was working on a presentation that my boss and I have to make on monday in green bay. i'm tired.

however that's as close to complaining as i get. i had tons of fun.
something about my work, something about the vision from the layer above that makes me want to work. work is not "work" - its a platfrom for friends, worship, capital, laughs, moments that freak you out, scare you, all for His sake. pretty cool.

what i want to do now is head to the mts, but it looks like i may be sleeping instead.

oh cool.
i just flipped it on espn2 and they are showing Lebron school the spurs.

having

I fear that many people seek to hear from God solely as a device for securing their own safety, comfort, and righteousness. For those who busy themselves to know the will of God, however, it is still true that "those who want to save their life will lose it?" My extreme preoccupation with knowing God's will for me may only indicate, contrary to what is often thought, that I am over concerned with myself, not a Christlike interest in the well being of others or in the glory of God. - Willard

Started a new book, Hearing God, by Dallas Willard. This nugget was in there and, like he often does, caught me off guard.

Is it me he is speaking about?
Why am I doing this?

This is a thought that frees, however it leaves us wanting.
What action do I now take? What thing applied to my daily life will help me? Perhaps that's the point - we apply finite to the infinite vs. apply the infinite to the finite.
Perhaps the same action results, however the heart is proned in completely two different directions.

trans fat v2

makes me happy

new line of work

looks like the classes will move another inch apart.

6 feet deep and rich?

proposition

We share in the same proposition this morning: to, or not to, live.
Not this walking, talking, eating, sleeping kind of live - although the same also holds true.
I am talking about lets you breath deep, truly rest, seek, make eye contact, awe kind of live.

Wonder is accompanied by such life.
When observed you may call it childish, I call it free.


remember
A teacher who is not dogmatic is simply a teacher who is not teaching.
Gilbert K. Chesterton

news
d webb playing tonight at Eddie's Attice.

goodbye space

The phenomenon that is called myspace is impressive. Now the 6th most popular .com brand in the world has surpassed Amazon to claim that spot. It also accounts for 1/6 of every advertisement SEEN on the web - that's as Dave would say (roomie - blog right) - redonculous.

To be completely honest I kept myspace for two reasons; to be found and to be found impressive. Surprisingly enough I had no thought of finding my soul mate, although I hear its working pretty well on that front - especially the soul mate for a night.

I wanted to impress all those I have lost touch with. Ranging from girls I had crushes on in HS to acquaintances I have met in Atlanta. I want you to examine my life from afar but not any closer. I wanted to see the pretty girls get ugly and the popular guys still living with their parents. I can define the word prick at times.

the addiction is coming to an end, in 48 or so hours it will be yanked. (that's their stated time frame in case I changed my mind)

so long myspace.

observe
the people. what makes them tick. what makes them stare.
i want to know you, i want to want.
my introduction consists of shallow thought.
i forget your name as soon as you speak it, i am too concerned planning my next words.
i want them to be clever. i want to be witty and leave you wanting.
my identity is my hand, my play, i can leverage it how I see fit.
crafting my words, my hair, my lack of self talk to enable the perception of humble to run wild.
allow silence to speak for me, Machiavelli would be proud.
it can all be manipulated.
but i long to not. to not nay say, to think y instead of x as it applies to you.
why do i condone you when you are not like me.
i don't want to, but I do.
extend me grace.

in my coffee
nothing if that's what you were wondering. just some thoughts that needed to hit the pavement via the ol' blog.

um

i have not been blogging all that much - i am going to lose the 3 readers i have (hey mom).

bricks

define
Bricks; seemingly simple questions or comments made while unbeknownst to the other's soul, it causes them dismay and/or soul searching.

Everything question/comment feels like a brick right now.
This is not bad, yet tiring and needed.

trans fat

this will be huge for america.

shots

my first shots were at 9:30pm, I am proud of myself.

drive time
the new house is 2.7 miles from work, only 10 minutes for church (w/o constuction traffic, suck), 1.5 miles from the gym, 1.2 miles from starbucks, 1 mile from downtown alpharetta - conclusion - Roy is more sane and saves roughly an hour a day so he can spend time on blogger and cooking his own meals.

try

this week has been existential proof speaking against armenian thought. one who would choose to be fully armenian, because its much cooler, struggles with this.

i have often called worship the volition of cognition, devoting one's mind completely to Christ via the holy spirit and understanding the gospel through literature,history, art, music, education, sports, etc.
While the fundamental definition for me has gone unscathed - the practice of it rests on a presupposition that had yet to be defined clearly in my life.

this presuppostion is still taking shape in my soul, but in its simplist form boils down to; worshipping Christ not only promotes Christ as the affection of ones worhship but also the means unto which an individual can take part.

Movement is defined by action, however a static reference point is needed to actually determine movement. The presuppostion of this reference point is often forgotten, thus resulting in no movement at all, only chaos, frustration, and in some cases knashing of teeth.

walls of big words
though i struggle candidly, i filter it through the lense of philosophy and general terms. the above is a struggle i have had this last week. I have been numb to the gospel and for the first time in 7 days my affection is Christ.

first post

Started a new blog for no other reason than google release a new version.