somecognition :: a pondering of all things un-final.

Monday, October 16, 2006

goodbye space

The phenomenon that is called myspace is impressive. Now the 6th most popular .com brand in the world has surpassed Amazon to claim that spot. It also accounts for 1/6 of every advertisement SEEN on the web - that's as Dave would say (roomie - blog right) - redonculous.

To be completely honest I kept myspace for two reasons; to be found and to be found impressive. Surprisingly enough I had no thought of finding my soul mate, although I hear its working pretty well on that front - especially the soul mate for a night.

I wanted to impress all those I have lost touch with. Ranging from girls I had crushes on in HS to acquaintances I have met in Atlanta. I want you to examine my life from afar but not any closer. I wanted to see the pretty girls get ugly and the popular guys still living with their parents. I can define the word prick at times.

the addiction is coming to an end, in 48 or so hours it will be yanked. (that's their stated time frame in case I changed my mind)

so long myspace.

observe
the people. what makes them tick. what makes them stare.
i want to know you, i want to want.
my introduction consists of shallow thought.
i forget your name as soon as you speak it, i am too concerned planning my next words.
i want them to be clever. i want to be witty and leave you wanting.
my identity is my hand, my play, i can leverage it how I see fit.
crafting my words, my hair, my lack of self talk to enable the perception of humble to run wild.
allow silence to speak for me,
Machiavelli would be proud.
it can all be manipulated.
but i long to not. to not nay say, to think y instead of x as it applies to you.
why do i condone you when you are not like me.
i don't want to, but I do.
extend me grace.

in my coffee
nothing if that's what you were wondering. just some thoughts that needed to hit the pavement via the ol' blog.



6 comments:

Miriam said...

i love your sincerity... it strikes a cord.

ps. hope you are well. haven't seen u (or anyone at the gathering for that matter) in what feels like ages, and i admit that is entirely my fault. how is life?

Unknown said...

love it roy!
you did almost lose me as a reader... but now you have won me back over again. phew! was a close one.

thanks for your honesty... i know i can certainly relate with all you said. i'm sure most can.

have also been contemplating the idea of deleting myspace. almost did it yesterday morning, but set my account to private instead and decided to give it a week. perhaps my decision-making process is more extensive than yours. you know how girls are- we can never make up our minds about anything :)
i'm kidding! of course.

Unknown said...

p.s. i was just thinking: if you leave myspace, i REALLY have to leave because then i won't even have 8 friends to put on my page anymore!

Stephen Hunton said...

missed your postings bro...miss your hangin out too...need to sip a trappist rochefort in the very near future!

I love the way you're so blunt about the way you are, because you're just expressing what most people are thinking but are too shallow/embarrassed to admit.
kudos.
:)

hayden said...

Self-addicted jerks like you and me find much grace at the Cross. Right there with you, bro.

This is also why I do not have a MySpace page. You rock.

-h

mattba said...

good blog roy... kill the myspace, keep the blog.