somecognition :: a pondering of all things un-final.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Thursday, March 27, 2008

faith to faith

somehow it got lost in translation.
now that I have come to faith, in a certain sense, I could coast. I don't really hear that at the church I go to, I don't read that in the bible, nor does the community of people I hang with feel that way - I feel like it's a subtle implied thing that I either came up with on my own or that it's wired in there somewhere. I don't think I am alone in it. In school if you found out you could make a 99 without doing one more assignment would you still do one?
side note: Given my grades I didn't care if it was a 79 or a 99, so long as it wasn't a 69 (failing).....what killed me was that my college did the whole B- thing.....for some I am sure it helped, but for those of us who barely got by with B's it killed us.

We look at our "conversion" as this huge thing, which it is, but why don't I look at each decision for life, God, true pleasure the same way, with the same emphasis. I relish in new believers, as I should, but what about by roomies faith, who has "converted", overcomes a certain thing or or chooses glory over rubbish......I typically have, "duh - that's what you should have done" response while I should be rejoicing that he still chooses Life, Glory, God.

In short, every decision requires faith - just like the first time you exercised your option to faith. It's nothing short of that. For some, and I am apart of that some, it feels like that puts a huge burden on you and now there is this huge weight on every decision. At that point you have lost it once again. Faith is by no means a burden - and so long as it feels like a noose it's not faith. As a community we must remember that. I need you to help me remember that, vice versa.

thoughts spurred from Romans 1


Wednesday, March 26, 2008

muxtape

so this is an experimental site that is pretty rad.....def up my alley as it is mostly electronica in a certain form. maybe you will like something.
www.muxtape.com.

one quote: Using an incredibly sophisticated algorithm developed by Muxtape’s expert scientists early this morning, the home page now features muxtapes you might not have heard yet.

thanks lynton for passing the word.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

coffee is good for the soul. bad for the teeth.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

steadfast

I camped out in Psalm 51 this morn. a word that is louder at the moment is the word steadfast.

We, I, seem to be up against the wall when it comes to being this in our lives. This generation, my formation, has hearts/souls carved out for things other than the Lord. Sure it's true of other generations, however I pay particular attention to the generation I am apart of - fore in it, living and breathing, is an unquenchable notion of entitlement and pleasure for things unlovely. Let me first blame ourselves, myself, and the bad within that searches these things out. It shall not be blamed solely on the media or the arts or academia, (or the devil for those people who like to blame him for everything, theologically whack if you ask me) for all these things are made up of the sum of it's parts - you and me. We have led ourselves down this path, this path that circles back and back again, there is no end on this path, there is no higher ground.

In Psalm 51 there are adjectives, verbs, and nouns all rightly placed. All strongly placed. It is the reworking of these adjectives, verbs, and nouns that will lead us to the path of despair.

I pick weeds from this path daily, confusing it for the other "way", the other path. Typically I have to do a few loops before I even realize I am on it - or a brother/sister has to shout from higher ground so I can again gain bearing.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

far inbetween

my blogs are just that.
i would say i am prob busier than my normal busy - which means I have also been sick, reading less, thinking less, etc, etc.....list goes on. Things just tend to apply to the 2nd law as more and more 'stress' (stress not as commonly defined, however it being pressure exerted from multiple directions on an object that will eventually lead to break down or "chaos") is added to the equation.

the thinking I have been doing for work has been along the lines of collaboration, basically communication.
one thing that strikes me is that the issue of communication is nothing new (and either is that statement). wherever a system is in place, basically meaning greater than, but not equal to one part, has the potential to break down. hence communication, as it presupposes information flowing bi-directional between two or more different parts in a system (ie. two people sharing a cup of 'jo). as i survey people in their jobs, relationships, family, normal day affairs etc - communication seems to be the chief issue amongst them all. or so as the perception goes.

I have paid particular attention to not the parts in the system but rather the noise that exists around, during, before, or after the system takes places. ie. An individual was hurt by another individual who has a similar makeup therefore inherently distrusts much of what leaves this person's mouth based on previous notions.

This exists in all systems, NOISE. Whether it be a system where mechanical pieces are involved or where people are involved NOISE must be considered. Given the law mentioned at top, it will find the path of least resistance, where non-equilibrium is found, so it can enter there and break down the system. That being said, as a broken, frail person I must assume that I am chief of where any system can break down and therefore must proceed with humility as apart of any system i hope to flourish.

not always the case.
much love.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008