a gap

the philosopher and the scientist will admit that there is much they do not know; but that is quite another thing from admitting that there is something which they can never know, which indeed they have no technique for discovering. To admit that there is One who lies beyond us, who exists outside all of our categories, who will not be dismissed with a name, who will not appear before the bar of our reason, nor submit to our curious inquiries: this requires a great deal of humility, more than most of us possess, so we save face by thinking God down to our level, or at least down to where we can manage him. Yet how he eludes us - aw tozer

That is where I live day to day, managing God. After all I manage; my calender, my contacts, my sales calls, my Friday nights. This god is not the God of Abraham, Jacob, Moses, or the 10 year old Roy - this is the one who I have placed under my dogma, leaving little wiggle room for his mean, methods, or time table. If it is not within my reason or understanding I just don't go there.

I dumb down for my audience so I can double my dollars - jay z (genius given the current state of the music business)

Ephesians 2 has to set in for truth to take hold. This chapter has been my wrestling ring lately, I have yet to win. I find that to be the core of what i accomplish daily - dumb him down so I can understand and predict him.
I posted regarding this same thought here too.


experiment
Yesterday I just drove, drove north. Not really knowing where to go or how to get there - i ended up at Bear Gap just north of Dahlonega, GA. A nice 4 mile hike, about 1.2 miles off the Appalachian Trail. The trail peaks with a wood bench over looking "Bear Gap." I suggest the hike, more so I just suggest just getting out, "out of pocket" as the trendy business man says (stab at self). Matt B spoke a couple of weeks ago about talking out loud versus thinking to your self, subjecting your thoughts to the air somehow dually subjects it to truth. I used the trail versus the isles of Target for such an experiment. If you are highly introspective and seldom subject your thoughts to the air or others because you feel alone in the matter, I suggest trying it. Perhaps not a trail, perhaps just a walk or a chat on the back porch. You will look weird, sound weird no doubt

trying

i really am trying to find time to post, but no love.
things are busy, a good kind of busy.

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February 28th at Eddie's Attic

soc

my theories, oh how beautiful.
don't you buy them, endorse them, just adore them?
may it be to your despise if you demise what i theorize.

my heretics exasperate, but I have no consciousness thereof - agree with me you naysayer, buy my dogma, it's for sale.

what it means
to be a little less vague, the above is a stream of consciousness (soc) I had while listening to some Dabrye (see music to the right). I get to a degree of annoyance where I just sorda go off on these soc. they are insight to the condition of my soul. most often they are where my best ideas come from, sometimes it's also where my skeletons are found. they are ambitious thoughts that call for so much personal bandwidth to carry out that I actually carry out very little of what labor they make available thus creating a personal feeling of contempt for being unable to act on passions.

that's all.

music
I think the soc thing has played with my music preference as of late. I got on iTunes late last night and just started clicking "buy" - when done i realized that everything i bought was instrumental, many of them beat driven. i have a new name for these - "think beats" - it is absolutely amazing how much work i can get done when listening to them or the visuals i think off. It's, to date, the greatest productivity tool I have found.