vegas

I am leaving Vegas in a few minutes., I have been on the road 8 days and have 6 more to go..good times with my best friend from 1st grade.

airplane moment

Every time I ride an airplane I have this random, yet recurring, moment when I visit the bathroom (not that kind of moment). I look in the little mirror as i wash my hands and all of a sudden it hits me -
"I am freaking flying"
"I am thousands of feet in the air, flying - flying"
And I begin to sorda get this childish grin to even think how nuts that is...the sheer thought of it blows me away. Can you imagine a few hundred years ago a few friends chatting outside their abodes, or in the horse n buggy, or whatever and one of them blurts out - "One day humans will be able to fly" - what lunacy the other friends must have thought. How in the H is anyone going to fly, get real. Granted people can't fly in of themselves, however due to this whole plane thing it is made possible.

A few days after my airplane moment I am sitting in a pretty random, eclectic - cool church in downtown LA held at the Wilshire theater instead of at a typical building. all kinds of people around, Benz's and Buicks, old and young, 5 plastic surgeries or more and people who prob never look in the mirror, black, asian, hispanic and whites....all worshiping together. And then it hits me -
"We are freaking children of God"
Just like the airplane moment, it's this known that I just over look and forget the craziness of it all.This is even crazier than flying though, "a child of God" - how nuts is that? Just try saying it to yourself and if it doesn't make you sorda feel insane, or blush, or shout or flat out shut your mouth then somethings up.
Granted people are not children of God in of themselves, however due to this whole Christ thing it is made possible.

last nights sleep just like the day before

go to sleep eager to wake so I can right the day past

only to find my notions fleeting and failing.
yet again a day past.

wake again, only to find my notions fleeting and failing.
nothing different, I am.

all selfish, all just ambition.
yet again, i do not fleet or fail.

work late

its the right night to have to work supa' late....Radio Head's new album came out -In Rainbows -
name your price.

much as of late

An adventure is only an inconvenience rightly considered. An inconvenience is an adventure wrongly considered. _GK Chesterton

My my, what a hindrance my mindset poses to my hands at work. I long to be satisfied not by my work but why I work. i get the equation mixed up daily and wonder why futility lurks around the next corner. contempt lay and wait to pounce, forgetting that I laid the trap. I walk blindly into troubled waters only to find I am stirring the ocean that my own soul drowns in.

my roomie

my roomie dave giggles when he watches UGA football - its sorda weird.

2nd tim

This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time

It says in 2nd Timothy - He started the grace ball rolling before the beginning of time - wow! what does that mean? How does that impact the perspective I have on today? That before he created anything he had thought about Grace. not boulders, not the seas, nor me - but Grace. Fore if I came first, grace would surely not follow.

I commonly think time revolves around me, Roy. Along with the sun, the moon, and everything you do. I am the central character and everyone else plays the antagonist, "get out my way sucka." This all seems to boil down to some form of selfish ambition that I have rooted deep within me. I have found this ambition failing and when it fails the world atrophies along with me (in my head of course, not in real life) (what happens when a star collapses is the picture i get)
and everything just goes to crap. Sunsets are dumb. Friends are a drag. Blah Blah.

All this to say that 2nd Timothy touches me today. My ambition failed many times today and the sunset that i now look at looks glorious, not drab as if my ambition eclipsed even the Lord's creation.